IN A NUTSHELL: Crappiest Day of the Year So Far
My First Student Conflict
I taught at Miyoshi Jr. High today and had trouble in one of my classes.
Here
is the course of events: In my 9th grade class with Sakane-sensei,
there was a boy throwing a washcloth around to the back of the classroom and such.
At the fourth throw, I went over, forced it out of his hands and hung it on the back window,
resisting the temptation to throw it out the window. Eventually, he went back
to retrieve it, but he didn't throw it at anyone anymore, so I didn't
do anything. Then he started tilting the table he was sitting at. He shared the
table with one other boy in the front row. I ignored the tilting for awhile. Once, I walked
by with my nose in my book as if I didn't know where I was going, my hip clipping the corner of
the table "by accident" and
pushing it back down. My subtle technique worked for the time. Then he started tilting again.
I ignored it until the other kid's books fell to the floor. Then my patience ran out.
I went over
and slammed the table back down to normal. It surprised him considerably, which was
the point.
Thirty Seconds Later Not long after I had forced the
table straight, the kid suddenly stood up, grabbed the collar of the boy next to him which
forced
him up, then
pushed him toward the corner of the room. Sakane-sensei intervened, getting between the two since it
looked like it could be a fight. The guy then started hitting Sakane-sensei. Not
hard at all, but threateningly and repeatedly. I was frozen and stunned.
Finally, she took him out into the hall. I fumbled around and then found the next handout
in her bag and handed it out. Sakane-sensei came in after a few minutes, a male
teacher now talking to BOTH boys in the hallway. She finished class smooth as can be.
Afterwards, I told her I was really upset by that kid's behavior, but she brushed it off.
I thought he should be suspended but she said he was not even close to the worst and
that they rarely suspended.
I don't know if I was overreacting but it seems like
touching a teacher is sacred territory.
Stranger Still The male teacher (who I until
then felt indebted to for coming up and talking with the boys) came up and talked with me.
Suddenly, it seemed like I was partially to blame. He said that when I pushed the desk
down that "it surprised him" and that maybe it scratched the other kid. I said sorry if
it hurt the kid who was not misbehaving, but that "surprising" the bad kid
was the whole point, of course.
I don't even see what the two had in common except that the fight started thirty seconds after
I pushed the desk down.
I was having trouble focusing on the Japanese,
and Minokuchi was not doing a great job of translating either him to English or me to Japanese
(I was too flustered to speak Japanese coherently) but it sounded like he wanted ME to apologize.
HUH?!? (Minokuchi translated something very strange that sounded like "Well, that kid -
the kid who was attacked - mother is very overparanoid about scratches and so might
be upset that he has a scratch from when you pressed the desk down." HUH?!? )
I kept trying to explain what I thought was pretty logical but he kept
saying strange things that I didn't quite understand. It seemed like he believed the
two boys' story (whatever it was) over me, even though Sakane-sensei could back up
everything I said.
Finally, he said he would try to get an apology from the boys. I thought this
was ironic as recently I was just reading an article LAST NIGHT about
apologies in Japan as a form of punishment. I said bluntly that I don't
care if he apologizes, I just want his behavior to change. They seemed to think that such
a thing was too much to ask. I suppose it is a step up from nothing, but apologies
mean very little to me if I have doubt that it is meant.
Anyway, I was really upset.
I was upset that it happened and the kid wasn't going to be punished
I was upset that I got a bit of blame placed on me even though I was just trying
to keep a reasonably disciplined classroom. I'm upset because I'm trying SO SO SO hard everyday
to be friends with the kids and be genki, happy, and inquisitive no matter how tired I am.
I'm trying so hard its killing me, and
now I have at least two if not several more kids hating me
and this teacher seems to think I'm to blame too, even though Sakane-sensei doesn't and
she is a respected veteran.
She and Minokuchi-sensei seemed to agree that I did the right thing and
Sakane-sensei said that this event was pretty minor. I still was not calm until after lunch, though.
Maybe I just don't remember that well, but I don't recall ever seeing a teacher threatened before.
I've seen a few fights between students when I was growing up, but never a teacher.
I have a low tolerance for misbehavior and violence, but I don't know how to
cope with it. I don't have enough experience to discipline effectively, but Sakane-sensei
doesn't do anything.
I think I finally understand when people get frustrated with the Japanese school system.
if you can't expel/suspend/discipline students, how do you deal with
the troublemakers? But, still, it seems like she could have done SOMETHING.
I preferred the kid who slept through my class.
I don't want to teach that class again. I don't know what to do if something
like that happens again.
After thinking it over, it seems a lighter approach might be more effective. Maybe a
"please, please, please" like I do with Nakano-san (the slacker Sakugi kid) or something
subtle like pretending I'm doing something else while 'accidentally' fixing the problem.
Or like that one time I listened to the kids headphones and asked him
about the music before taking them off his ears in class.
I Still Don't Get It Later, when
I felt better (my last class of the day went very well) I tried to be nice to
the male teacher and thank him for helping out with the boys (even if he
was rude to me) and I swear he said something standoffish like
"I guess you'll adjust to our system soon enough, let's work hard at that."
What a jerk! I feel just really frustrated and helpless because I feel
like I ruined the good connections Kate made with the bad boys and I
feel like I did not help my successor either. ARGH.
The Only Good News of the Day
Well, it looks like Sungreen will be open until 9pm instead of 7:30.
About freaking time. Maybe someday, we'll progress to
24-hour supermarkets.